How many lifetimes are in a lifetime?

Music playing

Can I maintain

Ive mastered the art of

Hide and seek

Hiding from my own shadow

So I ask myself

Whats my real

Fear 

Is it truly looking in the mirror

Is it my silhouette 

That makes me quiver

With the thought of reality

Looking hard and close

Backing up from doing the most

Teenage years so far away

Summer love

Is where my life started though

Grew out of teen life a lifetime ago

The year of  20s that was a ride

In the beginning it was all jive

I loved I learned I crashed I burned

But that was a lifetime ago

Sitting in my 30s 

Still not feeling sturdy

Guess I still have a lifetime to go

So what does it really mean

To see one next lifetime

Do we create our lifetimes

Or are they created

Are our lifetimes within

Or do we hesitate when one is outdated