Realizations

Grounding I think I found it I think im finding me Dont care for the reality Of my flaws but I am well aware That they exist Naw aint nothing blissfully Gotta take the good with the bad And look fully I love my daughter But how can I be good for her If I aint good for me  Truthfully My ruthlessness Will ruin me internally Externally floating Do I revolt On do I sit quite  I wonder if she can tell That I will always fit in Sadly enough I woulda threw it all away for the sake of me Loving me 2018 The year of uncertainty On the side of giving up On me  2years later I am a different me White flag I think I guess im learning to be happy

Music playing Can I maintain Ive mastered the art of Hide and seek Hiding from my own shadow So I ask myself Whats my real Fear  Is it truly looking in the mirror Is it my silhouette  That makes me quiver With the thought of reality Looking hard and close Backing up from doing the most Teenage years so far away Summer love Is where my life started though Grew out of teen life a lifetime ago The year of  20s that was a ride In the beginning it was all jive I loved I learned I crashed I burned But that was a lifetime ago Sitting in my 30s  Still not feeling sturdy Guess I still have a lifetime to go So what does it really mean To see one next lifetime Do we create our lifetimes Or are they created Are our lifetimes within Or do we hesitate when one is outdated